With A Whisper

I've been obsessing over Lifehouse again these past few nights. I've been listening to their songs for more than a decade now, but last night, I was brought to my knees.

And You can shake the mountains with a whisper

And You, You speak and I fall at Your feet again

Sometimes, we don't realize we're lost until we're found. It wasn't until I heard that song that I realized how far I wandered. It wasn't until I heard those words that I remembered how wonderful falling in love with Him can be. I remember feeling that way. I remember the beauty. I remember the joy.

It's easy to love Him during the harvest. It's easy to raise your hands and praise Him when life is good. It takes so much faith and patience to love Him during the drought. I've been so caught up in myself--in my pain and my confusion, and it took me so long to figure out that I was miserable because I spent more time seeking answers than simply seeking Him. It was so easy for me to say that I couldn't find Him, when I probably wasn't even really looking for Him.

And it was there, with knees bent, face drenched with tears, and a heart shattered into a million pieces, that He shook me with a whisper. Just like that, I am home. I am found. I am whole.

My heart is so full right now. I feel complete. I feel loved. For the first time in a long time, I feel content.

I am running, not sure where I'm going

and going as fast as I can

and I'm trusting that You'll lead me

and carry me the rest of the way

Everything I want is everything You are

Everything I am is Yours

it's Yours and Yours alone

04.24.15, 3:53AM