Immeasurable

"But behind all your stories is always your mother's story, because hers is where yours begin.” 

                                ― Mitch Albom, For One More Day

If I could rewrite the story of my life, and be able to change one seemingly unchangeable detail, I would change myself to be a good daughter. I would never make you cry.

Do you remember that afternoon? I was walking towards the kitchen when my vision started to blur, until it finally blacked out. In a panicked voice, I called out to you, "Mom, I can't see. I can't see!" I dropped down and cried, and finally you came, and you held me in your arms and cried with me. I don't know who was more afraid that moment--you or me.

That short moment of blindness is one of the defining moments of my life. I could lose my sight, could lose the whole world, but I know I could never lose you. A mother's love could never be lost or robbed or taken away. 

And I am and always will be grateful. And I wish I could show you just how much.

But maybe I'll always be like this. Just because I don't see you or call you or even ask how you are often enough doesn't mean I love you any less, or that I don't really care. I do. In this silence, I'll always be loving you, missing you, wanting to be with you again. In this silence, I pray that you'll always know that as immeasurable as the sky is my love and gratitude for you.

Happy Mother's Day, Mother, and Happy Wedding Anniversary! ♥