Life goes on.

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life--
it goes on."

                                                         - Robert Frost

It does. No matter how much you don't want it to, no matter how much you want to hold on to the present. Regardless of whether you're ready for the future or not.

I think it can be a bad or a good thing. A matter of perspective, they say. 

I remember reading "Who Moved my Cheese?", and realizing how much I struggle with changing, or dealing with the changes in my life. I'm one of those people who hold on to things for too long, and sometimes I just wake up dumbfounded and perplexed, wondering how and when things became so different.

But on the bright side, passage of time means healing. Are you grieving? Heartbroken? Struggling? It will come to pass. Regardless of whether the cliche "Time heals all wounds" is true or not, I just know for sure that sadness doesn't last forever. We get over it, we forget it. Because as long as we can find something or someone worth living for, we go on. We keep living. We don't surrender.

Life in Bokeh

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be.

I've always loved this song, but I don't think I've ever been more in love with it than I am right now.

Convert To, Convert From

This morning, I discovered that I still have in my wallet an index card I made when I was still reviewing for the board exam--the one for conversions. I guess I really am terrible at letting go  and moving on.

The reason I'm telling you this is because it made me realize a very important thing: I don't think I'm ready to work just yet. Like how I'm holding on to this index card, I'm holding on to what I've known, what I've been for so long. I'm not willing to let go of what's familiar. The truth is, I want to go back to school. I want to take up Master in Chemistry, then eventually become a QC analyst. But I don't know; it's not easy to make decisions right now. And maybe some dreams are meant to be just that--dreams.

Chlorpromazine

"It's madness...

To hate all roses, because you got scratched by one thorn.

To give up all your dreams, because one did not come true.

To lose faith in prayers, because one was not answered.

To give up on your efforts, because one of them failed.
To condemn all your friends, because one of them betrayed.
Not to believe in love, because someone was unfaithful."
                                                        - Antoine de Saint Exupery, The Little Prince       


Remember that, another chance may come up.
A new friend, A new love, A new life.

Never give up on anything!

                                   

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Chlorpromazine - an antipsychotic drug used in the management of schizophrenia and other mental illnesses.

I love you like Fluorine loves electrons.

Family picture. And yes, I love them like Fluorine loves electrons. Maybe more.

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Fluorine is the most electronegative element in the periodic table.

Polymorphism

Okay, so technically my niece is not polymorphic since she does not transform from human to other life (or nonlife) forms. But she might as well be with how frequent she changes her facial expressions. Take these for instance:

What did you just say?

Well, I guess that makes sense.

Are you sure?

OMG! I can't believe it!

Well, that's just fine and dandy.

I swear her adorable-ness is beyond words, beyond pictures. Right, Didie?

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Polymorphism - the existence or formation of different types of crystal of the same chemical compound.

Elaine

No, it's not narcissism. Not really. The poem below was actually written by my indubitably talented poet/songwriter friend Sheila, or Sheilalou as I call her. I'm a big fan of her works and I've been bugging her for the longest time about making a poem for me. She finally completed it yesterday afternoon, and I'm so in love with it I'm posting it here. :)

She sees the world in a different light 
And appreciates the simple joys of life
She travels to different worlds through books
But battles with trials with optimism and prayer.

She’s a girl of few words
But with a heart of gold
She’s passive at times
she’s our wonderwall.

She’s a ball of inspiration
A warrior with a heart
A dreamer with so much passion 
A friend who listens and understands.

Elaine you’re a strong being
Elaine, you’re a beautiful and brave soul
You’re in love with life, you’re a ray of light.
You’re stronger than caffeine
You’re a picture of happiness
You’re a real person
And for the record, you’re [more] infectious than I am. 


Not all people can say their friend wrote them a poem. Thank you Sheilalou, for making me feel so special. <3

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Elaine \e-lai-ne\ as a girl's name is pronounced ee-LAYNE. It is of Greek origin, and the meaning of Elaine is "sun ray, shining light". French variant of Helen.

The Truth About Forever

Shift + RCL

Aaaaaaand nostalgia sets in. For three months, my life revolved around studying for the board exam. And for three weeks, I lived with 14 wonderful people who made the journey less of a burden somehow.

It's hard. It's hard when you've gotten used to having them near you--24/7 at that. The early mornings, the late nights. How we turned on each other not only for answers, but also for comfort, for reassurance, for strength. In those 3 weeks, we became family.

 

And suddenly there's no more signature knock. No more bells. No more squeals and no more talks about mechanisms of action, drug classes, side effects... All that's left are photos. Memories. There's no going back. There's no turning back time.

And at the end of everything, we can't relive, only recall. And I'm missing you, Don Bosco housemates. <3

Upregulation

Being with you is easy like Sunday morning. 

Like a pair of pajamas.
Like breathing.
Like the sun in the sky. 
Like the fishes in the sea.
You and I, we move along with gravity.

And right now, I'm going through withdrawal. Because it was so abrupt--there was no tapering of the dose. You were here and suddenly you aren't. And my system is craving for you.

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Upregulation - increase in the number of receptors, causing withdrawal syndrome.