Trying

We are all trying--some harder than the others, but we are all trying. Even getting out of bed requires a certain amount of effort. Even going back to bed requires a certain amount of effort. One can just stand in front of the coming bus, or jump off a bridge, or just refuse to get up. Day in and day out, we are all trying, and we all have to appreciate that.

I posted this as a Facebook status early last year, and I'm posting it here this time as a reminder to myself. There are so many words to be said, so many ideas to be thought, and so many things to be done, but for now, trying has to be enough.

Found

"You will seek Me and find Me 

when you seek Me with all your heart." 

                      - Jeremiah 29:13

Whenever I try to recall how I got here, I always go back to the summer of 2012. I didn't know where I was being led to, and I had no idea how it would change me, but God indeed moves in ways we cannot imagine.

Three years have passed, and I can honestly say that I'm a different person now. God's love is transformative--His grace never leaves us where it found us.

When God finds you, the world around you changes. Because when God finds you, you see the world through grateful eyes.

Ps Christian Flores asked, "Are you still as excited today in cherishing that gift as that day you first received it?"

I'm answering "yes", without any hesitation. I wrote this two years ago, and I'm still as captivated as I have been. I have endured storms and drizzles and hurricanes since then, and in the end, I don't think I've ever loved Him more. He still takes my breath away. I have no doubts that He always will.

I will always stand in awe of Him.

"He determines the number of the stars

and calls them each by name." 

                                         - Psalm 147:4

Questions?

I know I don't seem very approachable (I attribute this as a curse of the introvert) so I decided to create an Ask.fm account. You can ask me (anonymously, if you prefer) anything and I'll try my best to answer as honestly as possible. :)

Dear Future Husband

Maybe I'll never meet you. Just like how I'll probably never get that tattoo or get to see the Grand Canyon or learn how to swim. Maybe I'll never get to be with you.

But until I know for sure, I will keep hoping that someday, you will be holding my hand. I will keep praying that someday, I will be praying with you.

I know that girl. I know every angle of her face. I know every desire, every hope, every insecurity, every heartbreak.

I've seen her looking at the mirror, trying to make herself believe that she's a blessing, that she is loved, that she matters.

I've seen her hide away the sadness in her eyes by filling her retinas with beautiful sunsets and waterfalls and mountain ranges.

I've seen how she fell apart every night and put her own pieces back together in the morning.

I've seen her gluing her own cracks.

I know that girl. I wonder if I'm the only one who does.

March 7

"I've waltzed around you seven times

only to become

a melody you never sang."

                                 - Collective Soul

I'm basking in my sorrows tonight because this day last year, I was so hopeful. He probably doesn't even remember me.

Yeah, I know I'm being overdramatic.LOL

20 Things About Me

I originally posted this on Instagram months ago, and I'm posting it here just because.LOL

So here are 20 facts you might or might not know about me:

1. I'm a Christian. This just has to be said first.

2. I love photography.

3. I can listen to one song on repeat for weeks.

4. I only listen to alternative rock, Christian music, and a handful of old pop songs.

5. I can be very patient. Too patient for my own good sometimes.

6. I don't eat raw food. Or veggies. Even cooked veggies.

7. I'm naturally a quiet person but people who know me don't believe it.LOL

8. Sometimes, I prefer being alone, just reading books in coffee shops or trying on clothes.

9. Starbucks is my guilty pleasure. Mint mochaaaaa.

10. I'm an artist at heart. (Don't ask me why I took up Pharmacy.)

11. I'm also a nerd at heart. (This is probably why.)

12. I don't know how to swim or ride a bike.

13. I'm a hopeless romantic.

14. You wouldn't want to hear me sing. I'm a terrible singer.LOL

15. I'm a big fan of poetry but I'm bad at writing poems.

16. I'm half-Chinese but I don't look Chinese.

17. I'm absolutely terrified of lizards and frogs.

18. Unlike most Filipinos, I'm really not a "rice person".

19. I love night drives and 3AM conversations.

20. I love traveling, and I really want to travel around the world one day.

Isn't it amazing how much there still is to discover about ourselves? :)