Answers

"I wait for You, O Lord

You will answer, O Lord my God."

                       - Psalm 38:15

I woke up around 3:30 in the afternoon and looked out the window. It was going to rain. The skies have been overcast for days. "I want to see the sunset, Lord," I begged. "It's been days." 

Several chapters of Psalms later, I looked out the window again. The big, dark clouds have gone away.

I'm waiting for answers. I feel like I've been repeating this line so many times to so many people by now, but yes, I'm still waiting for the answers to my prayers. And today's sunset reminded me that God hears every whisper, every thought. That He has not turned a deaf ear to my cries. The answers will come in His time, in His way.

So with faith and hope in my heart, I shall press toward what is ahead.

Sunday Lessons: Choose to conquer your circumstances.

I'm a girl who walks in fields of grace. I walk in bright daylight, past sunflowers and daisies and butterflies.

For the past week, however, my days have been so murky. I was feeling too much, alternating between happiness and sadness in whiplash-worthy intervals. I felt like I was running from bright fields to dark valleys and back again. 

But it was there, in the darkness, that I realized how grateful I am for the light. I realized that there's no place I'd rather be than in the light--forever basking in it, forever seeing it, forever following it.

"God will bring you out of darkness."

We will all experience darkness; no one is exempted from it. We can choose to stay in the dark. We can choose to embrace it, love it, live in it. Or we can conquer it. We can choose to call on God, get up and seek for His light.

I choose the light. I will always choose the light.

"Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things."

                                     - Philippians 4:8

Make this go on forever.

There are days when time couldn't seem to go slower, when every tick of the clock is a relief, a breath of fresh air.

Then there are the days that we wish would never end--days so beautiful that we try and hold each passing minute in our hands.

Can you tell me how could it be any better than this?

I wish I could make this go on forever.

Running

I'm sorry this is not a Sunday lesson.

My head is spinning. There are so many things that I don't understand right now, so many things I just couldn't grasp. Everyday for the past few days, I've been running past valleys and tunnels and mountains and back again. I feel like I'm always running--running away from some things and running towards others.

I'm exhausted. My heart is exhausted trying to hold itself together.

I'll keep running, though. I'll keep going because I believe in His promises. I believe in His sovereignty.